MAY 31, 2014: “Because It’s NEVER Really Goodbye” …


Dear Catherine:

I just wanted to say that I’m so happy we reconnected. I know, initially, my reason was to see if you could help me and Steve. But just talking to you, I get what an awesome person you are. Inside and out. I knew the first time I met you that you were the one. I wish things could’ve turned out different, but you DID say you believe in fate. And Zach was your fate. I’m so happy you’ve found the love that you deserve. This is going to sound strange but reconnecting with you makes me feel a little bit closer to Mitch. Is that weird? He would’ve wanted us to stay in touch. I’m sorry I didn’t. Especially knowing now what you’ve been through. I wish I could’ve been there for you. But the situation being what it was, I don’t know if that would’ve helped or hurt you even more with me being a constant reminder. You’re a beautiful, strong, amazing woman and no amount of surgery or disfigurement could EVER change that. Zach sees it. You should too. But I get where you’re coming from. It would just be nice to feel “complete” physically. Well, I love you and I’m looking forward to spending more tine with you when I become a Texan. BTW…I’ve always wondered….does Zach ever feel strange that we’ve reconnected? Just a thought. Oh, and don’t forget to send me that Diary. I’m a big girl and I can take it. My memories of him are all wonderful. Nothing can change that. Also, it’s always interesting reading about the same experience from someone else’s perspective.

G’night. – Tonya