… because sometimes a song is all I really need to say everything I need to say. As of the moment I’m writing this, it’s exactly five months to the day that my life took a dive into the abyss. At quarter ’til midnight, I’ll probably have that gut-punch of a flash inside my head that I still can’t seem to shake, but I know that I’ll be okay. I’ll just cycle through the gauntlet and land right back on my feet, just like I do every day, because I’m a Warrior QUEEN with a “ghost gang” of actual angels that ride or die with me always.

I … Survive … Always!

I still believe that I’m the luckiest woman alive and God’s actual favorite daughter. Truth being told, I’ve never felt closer to God than I have these last months, and my relationship with Him has been my ultimate saving grace. That, my friends, is the ONLY Truth I’ll ever need.

With that, my “186th day” prayer tonight is that everyone I love, anyone who’s life I touch, and anyone who is reading these words right now somehow reaches this divinely appointed place called “nirvana” that I have so that they never have to deep dive all alone.  

IN THE DEEP

I am still as the moment I hold in my hand. I can’t let go. Here and now, time and space, the illusion so grand. And then I know every breath leads the way. My escape, it is never far when I fall in the deep with You. I see that Heaven’s never far. Let it wash over me, The Truth I seek, let it lift my heavy heart. So alive, every rise, every fall brings me back to where I must go. All that I’ll ever need is this moment to get me by when I fall in the deep. With You I see that Heaven’s never far. Let it wash over me, The Truth I seek. Let it lift my heavy heart. I’m slowly fading in Your arms. I’m slowly fading in Your arms. When I fall in the deep, with You I see that Heaven’s never far. Let it wash over me, The Truth I seek. Let it lift my heavy heart. {Alter Bridge}