DECEMBER 20, 2020: “Alone, Not Lonely.” …

The person you needed the most will teach you that you don’t need NOBODY.

I stumbled upon this seemingly poignant quote today by an unknown author. While at first it seemed a bit like a victim’s martyrdom, the longer I sat with it, the more I agreed, only not for the “oh, poor me” reason I believe the author originally intended.

You see, after everything I’ve learned about myself during my process of rebirth and creation, I’ve come to the profound conclusion that the person I needed the most all these years was ME. So, now that I’ve finally shown up for myself with the proverbial white horse, sword, and armor, I sure don’t “need nobody” but me. Wait! I need God and I need me.

Unless and until one can master the art of being “alone, but not lonely” and develop a secure relationship with themselves, they will never truly know whether they’re in a relationship with someone else because they want them or they need them.

THERE’S A DIFFERENCE!

From this point on, anyone I choose to allow into my atmosphere will be there only if I believe they’ll punctuate my life in the same inspired way I punctuate others. My energy is precious, and because I’m mortal, it’s fleeting, so, I refuse to spend it flippantly.

No, I’m not lonely. What I am at this juncture is just “alone” in my process of taking this relationship with myself to epic levels. Truth being told, few are the people who are even strong enough to venture with me into all the uncharted territories I’ve yet to go.

Call it an angel. Call it a muse. Call it karma that you’ve got comin’ to you.

Yes, you can be your very own angel and muse, and for the record, “Karma” isn’t always a bad thing. She works both ways, but that’s a different story for another day. As far as I’m concerned, this muse that I’ve become to myself and the pure magic that I wield may have been waiting to find me for many lifetimes. God, Himself, knows how hard I’ve worked to find it though, so, it’ll be an ice-cold day in HELL before I let it go.

I am Catherine Marie Williamson and God’s actual favorite daughter. I am my own best friend. I am my own true freedom. I am my safest home, and a risen from ashes QUEEN. “All of this” is not for the faint of heart, my friends, and this queen ain’t playin’ small! I’d rather reign in my Queendom in solitude at the head of the table for the rest of my life here on Earth than reduce myself to “relationships” I have to force myself to choose out of boredom, desperation, or loneliness.

YOU’RE NOT ALONE TONIGHT

We all drink to forget – some of us more than most. When reality gets too real and the fires of hell to close. But I’m here to let you know that that you can make it through, if you believe that someone is watchin’ over you. Call it an angel. Call it a muse. Call it karma that you’ve got comin’ to you. What’s the difference? What’s in a name? What matters most is never ever losin’ faith. ‘Cause it’s gonna be alright … you’re not alone tonight. We all have our days when nothing goes as planned. Not a soul in the world seems to understand. And for someone to talk to, you’d give anything. Well go on and cry out loud – ’cause someone’s listenin’. Call it an angel. Call it a muse. Call it karma that you’ve got comin’ to you. What’s the difference? What’s in a name? What matters most is never ever losin’ faith. ‘Cause it’s gonna be alright … you’re not alone tonight. {Keith Urban}