AUGUST 4, 2019: “Without Him” …

How can this be happening? I’m losing him. WE’RE LOSING HIM! And now it feels like I’m losing myself.

The best part of my life came and past and it’s all downhill from here.

He’s dying. HE’S FUCKING DYING! I can’t do this without him. What will I do if he doesn’t get better? PLEASE, oh God, PLEASE … give us both just enough strength to make it through this.