Yesterday morning, while arranging my weekly flowers, I found myself smiling from ear to ear as I looked up to the sky and said:

Well, Williamson, you DID say you never wanted a day to go by that there weren’t fresh flowers in the house for me, right? Just because you’re gone, it doesn’t mean there won’t be flowers in this house for me ALWAYS. Not only would you hate that, but as it happens, I’m STILL a queen, and after all that has been said and done, I FRIGGING DESERVE THEM!

… at which point I just kept primping them in my absolute favorite container with nothing but the truest joy in my heart, all the while thanking GOD for the real life Superman he sent to me, if only for a season, to once and finally remind me that I am worthy of all the most beautiful things in this world, not the least of which are any and all kindnesses, no matter how simple or grand, that I so choose to bestow upon myself all the remaining days of my life. I will continue to treat myself how I wish to be treated by others while I continue to survive in this realm: WITH POWER, GRACE, LOVE, AND KINDESS!

I have always loved flowers, and despite the appearance and over the top accoutrements of my life, my affection can’t be bought. That’s probably because I’ve enjoyed many creature comforts in my life, none of which prevented the toxic web I was entangled in for the majority of my life from all but slaying my mental wealth.

My point being this …

Of all the beautiful flowers I’ve been given from both my husbands, it was the less expensive, store-bought ones from Zack that I cherished the most. Depending on where he was working at the time, he would often have to go truly out of his way to get me those bouquets. Anyone “married” to the new home sales industry knows exactly what I’m saying. It’s a career that is not for the faint of heart. “To whom much is given” is the mindset you must embrace, as for all the abundance there’s steep personal price to pay … even when it comes to something as seemingly simple as picking up flowers for your wife. Some of the subdivisions he worked in were far off the beaten path and not conducive to “let me just run in and get her some flowers”. Not to mention the fact that by the time he locked those model home doors every night, all he wanted to do was get home. Every time he walked through the door with flowers in his hand, I knew exactly what those $5 bouquets really cost him: Time, energy, effort, and thought! Those are things that no man’s money will ever be able to buy me. Been there. Done that. I’M OVER IT!

So, with that, I am thanking God again today for the many gifts he left behind for me. My Superman may have fallen, but he will never leave my atmosphere.

I’m a divinely punctuated queen who is abundantly aware of her risen reflection in every mirror. The girl who once waged war with herself and her many wounds, now brings flowers to her scars instead!

YOU CAN’T STOP THIS GIRL!

If you are reading this now, I challenge you to take 20 minutes today and get that special someone some flowers. They don’t have to be expensive, because if they are worth any of your time, thought, and attention, they will appreciate the gesture regardless.

If you DON’T have someone special in your life, take 20 minutes today to get YOURSELF some flowers! Having a healthy, loving, forgiving, and unconditional relationship with YOU is the first step to becoming living royalty. Meanwhile, this song was particularly special one for Zack and me, because when we met, we were both an “amaryllis”.

AMARYLLIS

In a while now I will feel better, I’ll face the weather before me. In a while now I’ll race the irony and buy back each word of my eulogy. All the uninvited tragedies. Step outside. Ask yourself now where would you be without days like this when you finally collide with the moment you can’t forget. So, do I remind you of someone you never met? A lonely silhouette? And do I remind you of somewhere you wanna be? So far out of reach. Oh, I wish you’d open up for me ’cause I wanna know you. Amaryllis. Bloom. Stay a while now. Undress your colors ’cause they’re like no others I’ve ever seen. I could get used to your company. Step inside. Ask yourself now where would you be without days like this when you finally collide with emotions you can’t resist? {Shinedown}