AUGUST 30, 2022: “Dear Pain & Suffering” …

To My Dearest Pain, Suffering, Agony, Regret, Misery, Defeat, and Sadness:

It’s been just over three years since the love of my life stopped not just his own world, but all of ours as well, in the most egregious, abysmal, and literally psychotic course of events that any of us could have possibly foreseen or imagined. With all of that in mind, I have an extra special message for all of you:

I win!

You lose!

In case you haven’t noticed by now, despite all heaping piles of BULLSHIT every one of you mother fuckers dumped upon my shoulders and how hard you all tried to break my spirit, my heart, and steal my beautiful soul


Sure, I mostly do stand “alone”, but guess what? I’m NEVER lonely, ’cause the one thing you couldn’t take from me is ME! The last time I checked, I’M STILL STANDING UPRIGHT, I’m STILL God’s favorite daughter, and even IF my body leaves this place tomorrow, it’s heading somewhere NONE of you will be.

There’s no denying it … YOU NEVER HAD CONTROL! So, you can wipe them away, all those silly fuckin’ grins, ’cause I’m so DONE listening to your mother fucking’ side!

Oh, and one more thing. Be sure and tell your little friend Irony that they can go and SUCK IT, ’cause the very things that were intended to blind me from The Light, burn my fucking wings off, and turn me inside out, ONLY helped me see better, fly stronger, and turn me into an actualrisen from ashes” QUEEN!

So, with that, I’ve really gotta run. I have the concert of my lifetime awaiting me and mine in just a few hours this beautiful night and I’m not letting ANY of you douches kill my buzz. Actually, and now that I think of it? It looks like I made the entire lot of you my little bitch!

~ Queen Catherine


Take it, I don’t need it. I don’t wanna hear your mother fuckin’ side. You can love it, or you can leave it, because nothing I say and nothing I feel is right. Even if you wanted to, you couldn’t understand. While I’m sitting up here dying, you’re just holding out your hand. And even if I wanted to, I couldn’t have explained, ’cause you don’t know the difference between violence and pain. There’s no denying it, you’ve never had control! I stand alone. Guess I knew it all along. Yes, I knew that you were wrong, how you left when I was down. I want you to say it was never really me. You just turned and walked away! How you turned me inside out! Inside out! I’m not a dog. I’m not a slave. It doesn’t matter how much money I get paid. I give a shit. I never did. So, you can wipe it away, that silly fuckin’ grin! If I wrote it down for you, could you ever see it clear? Or would it go straight through your soul and come right out your ear? If I slowed it down for you, would you think me insincere? Cause in the end I’ll never bend, I’ll never shed a tear! There’s no denying it, I’ve always had control. {Five Finger Death Punch}

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