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APRIL 18, 2025: “… And Here’s To ANOTHER Good Good Friday!” …

The Diary Of My Perfection
I’ve prayed incessantly for the moment I would be at peace with the thought of no longer being the number one woman in his life, and yes, “you” have always been at the forefront of my MOST important prayers:
“Please, God, PLEASE let her momma be raising someone precious for my son. No, I’m not asking for her to BE perfect. Just let her be the perfect one for HIM.”
Some years ago I found this excerpt from a prayer someone wrote to God about his own sons, and I’d been keeping it tucked safely in the “drafts” of this Diary for the day he’d finally found someone who I believe was worthy of sharing it with. It had something to do with Princess Katherine, who as you know just became The Princess Of Whales:
“And so I pray … for a princess that realizes she’s the daughter of the King of Heaven and Earth … for a Princess clothed in humility and grace (rather than the latest fashions and trends) … for a princess with hands that will get dirty for the sake of serving others and feet willing to walk the extra mile (rather than one that demands manicures and pedicures by age seven) … for a princess whose “adornment” is not merely outward (arranging the hair, wearing gold, or putting on fine apparel), but rather, let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is “very precious in the sight of God.” {1 Peter 3:3-5} … for a princess who loves unconditionally and forever, and doesn’t run out when her prince falls off his royal horse and isn’t as charming as she dreamed (because it WILL happen). Amen.”
(“How To Talk To The Girl“)

And so, with that, here’s to me realizing that no matter where in both Heaven AND Hell this journey has already or will ever take me, I’m still and always God’s most FAVORITE daughter ever and one REALLY really blessed momma. BY the way, how freaking epic is it that she “kept” that little voice message I left her? As I said to her in the screen-shotted conversation you’ll see below, although she and I will clearly not always see eye to eye on things over the years, these are the moments that I’ll most want them all to remember when the time comes for me to head on over to The Brighter Side Of Grey. Here’s hopin’ they just “leave out all the rest! Indeed, today is a GOOD “Good Friday“.

As and aside, can I just say this to any and all of you mothers-in-law out there reading this right now? If you are blessed enough to have a son who’s found a girl to spend his life with who loves him as much as you do, why not take a minute to just let her know that “you see her”? Although “Monster-In-Law” was a really cute movie, the message therein was powerful:

“A daughter is her mother’s entire heart existing outside her body. She is her strength and her dreams and a better human than she could have ever imagined. She is her light, her baby, her world.” (Unknown)
But what about a daughter-in-LAW? She is his mother’s entire HEART existing outside her body. She is his strength and his dreams and a better human than either he or his mother could have ever imagined for him. SHE is his light, HIS baby now, and HIs world (as it should be)! Now that I think of it, this same rule can apply to all you dads out there, too. I of all people know exactly what it feels like when a father or even grandfather can’t cut the cord.
(“Monster-In-Law“)

MARCH 12, 2025: “i GET To Love Her!” …

The Diary Of My Perfection

… because if only you knew how long it took me to finally embrace this beautifully broken angel living inside my heart who didn’t think she was “lovable” for just under forty years, you’d understand why I carry this picture of her in my wallet, displayed in my bedroom, bathroom, and office, and in an utmost place of honor (just below the God who made me) in the most sacred temple I frequent: MY MIND!

For I am fearfully and wonderfully made!
(Psalm 139:14)
Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness.
(Colossians 3:12)
Wherever there is a human being, there is an opportunity for a kindness.
(Seneca)

“I get to love you! It’s the best thing that I’ll ever do! I get to love you! It’s a promise I’m making to you! Whatever may come, your heart I will choose! Forever I’m yours! Forever I do! I GET TO LOVE YOU!”

(Ruelle … and ME!)

Call it insanity. Call it pure vanity. Call it an over-inflated if not a narcissistic and conceited ego the size of eternity. If she was good enough for God to speak into Creation so “fearfully and wonderfully made” and good enough for His Son, Jesus, to die for, then she’s good enough for me to plaster pictures of on my heart and in my home. And please don’t confuse the aforementioned “narcissism” with healthy narcissism. Appropriate levels self-love, regard, confidence, and sufficiency while remaining humble enough to conceptualize just how “powerfully insignificant” our places are in all of this is one of the benchmarks for human survival. If we don’t think highly enough of ourselves, why even bother attempting to fight our way to sur-THRIVE-al?

“Reparenting.” It’s everything! The first day in your adult life that you’re able to show that broken kid you once were (or the kid you never got to be) some empathy, grace, unconditional love, and compassion, will be the first day of the rest of your life. I call “that day” my second birthday, and yes, my friends, I remember exactly where I was when I began the reparenting of “younger me”. It was April 8, 2008, and it truly was the beginning of who I’ve become.
(“Hey! Younger You! RISE UP!)

Do you have a picture of “younger you” in your vicinity? If so, I applaud you! If no, I cannot urge you enough to find your favorite picture of yourself at age “whenever you started breaking” and speak to that precious child IMPECCABLY every day as if they were your own … kindly, softly, and lovingly … ’cause, “WINK! WINK!” … you ARE your own!