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APRIL 5, 2026: “I Surrender All!” …

Happy Easter! HE IS RISEN! Meanwhile, never forget that it wasn’t just the nails:

An empty weathered wooden cross draped in ivory linen stands on a rocky hill as golden sunrise breaks through dark clouds.

He received 39 stripes because 40 was known to kill a man. They wanted him alive! They held handfuls of his beard, and hair and pulled it out by the roots. They wanted him alive! They kicked, punched, and spit on him for hours until there wasn’t a single spot on his body not covered in blood. They wanted him alive! They shoved a crown of thorns down on his head so harshly it stuck in his skin and skull. They wanted him alive! After hours of being beaten, mocked, whipped, flogged, and tortured, they made Him walk with a cross. They made Him carry it. A rough piece of wood with splinters digging into fresh wounds. They wanted him alive! 

They wanted Him to feel every ounce of pain they could bring. He HAD to feel it in order to heal us. Crucifixion was historically one of the cruelest most tortured deaths a human could face … hours upon hours of torture … torture most of us can not mentally think of because that kind of cruelty just isn’t normal and isn’t something our minds can comprehend.

We celebrate Easter with pastel colors, happy children hunting eggs, and chocolate bunnies. The truth is that there was absolutely nothing happy about the day Jesus died. It was cruel, bloody, and nasty.

He could have stopped all of it. He could have called every angel in Heaven to demolish every person standing and shouting “Crucify Him!” He didn’t. He knew that in order to have a Sunday, you have to have a Friday. He knew that in order to have joy, you have to carry your cross.

He felt everything that day. He felt how your heart broke wide open when you had to watch your baby die. He felt how heavy your life was when you were staring down the barrel of a gun wondering if the man you call husband was going to shoot you. He carried the weight of the burden you have felt since your spouse died and life just doesn’t seem right anymore.

On that cross, he held the rapists, murderers, sinners, and saints, leveling every playing field, and saying, “ALL of you are worth it!”

He knew He had to carry the cross, but He never promised that the cross you’d have to carry in this life would not be heavy. HIS WASN’T! His promise is that Sunday is coming.

No matter how heavy your Friday was today, be it financially, emotionally, mentally, or physically, such that the burden of that cross you bore all but crumbled and leveled you under its weight, His promise was simply this: He will never make you carry it alone.

Now, tell me? What kind of king would step down from his throne for this? For me? For you? For this “humanity” we have become? Jesus of Nazareth, the Son of God did! He did every bit of it for you and me.

Oh, yes, it’s SO heavy to carry the crosses in our life that we sometimes think we can’t even take one more step with. But look up, my friends … because Sunday is coming!

Author Unknown
A message to the author’s younger self appears beside a rough wooden cross, crown of thorns, and iron nails.
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MAY 19, 2025: “Reason Enough!” …

“But Cat, there’s a pretty good chance that all this crazy ‘God’ stuff isn’t real.”
But let me ask you this: WHAT IF IT IS? Are you really willing to hedge that big of a bet with your soul and have all your hopes and dreams just end in the heart of a graveyard?
“True freedom is understanding that some things just aren’t meant to be understood, because they’re NOT, and that having blind faith in all the things we can’t know isn’t as scary as it seems. Even if we’re wrong about the things we so deaf, dumb, and BLINDLY believe, we’re still ‘halfway right.’ As far as I’m concerned, ‘halfway right’ is still 50/50 odds, and I will gladly bet on it.”
{“The Freedom”}
As for me? Indeed, I’ve been called “crazy” by far too many people for far too many reasons to list. Lol. At this point, I all but embrace it! Being called “crazy” for not being afraid to die? I’ll wear that little badge with honor!
(“Isn’t That Crazy?”)

… ’cause at the end of the day, there is NO “unanswered” prayer. You just have to learn how to recognize the answers. I’m so beyond thankful for every one of mine … win, lose, OR draw … and even more thankful that I was forced … no, wait … that I “got” to learn how to “see” things truly blindly. If that isn’t reason enough for me to believe, then what am I even doing here? Bye everyone … it’s me … CAT!

  • Matthew 7:7–8 faith poster: Ask. Seek. Knock.
  • Reason Enough faith poster about continuing to pray, believe, and keep going.
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SEPTEMBER 24, 2023: “Dear Red” …

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“In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters. And God said, ‘Let there be light,’ and there was light.”
(Genesis 1 NIV)

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Wish that you could build a time machine so you could see the things no one can see? Feels like you’re standing on the edge looking at the stars and wishing you were them? What do you do when a chapter ends?‬ Do you close the book and never read it again? Where do you go when your story’s done?‬

MEANWHILE …

You CAN be who you were or who you’ll become‬! The Sun goes down and it comes back up‬. The world it turns no matter what‬. Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh oh, if it all goes wrong … darling, just hold on! It’s not over ’til it’s all been said‬. It’s not over ’til your dying breath‬. So, what do you want them to say when you’re gone?‬ That you gave up, or that you kept going on?‬

If you are standing on the edge right now, just looking at the stars and wishing you were them, remember that you kind of are. You are “nothing, everything, and ALL OF IT,” so keep the faith, hang on to hope, release yourself from prison, and JUST HOLD ON! HOPE really IS a good thing!

Oh, and one last thing to all you “Reds” out there who are struggling to find your way out of prison—or, more so than that, have found your way out but are just too scared to really let the light of hope shine through because you’ve become so accustomed to life in the dark that you literally don’t know how to live without it:

Dear Red,

If you’re reading this, you’ve gotten out. If you’ve come this far, maybe you’re willing to come a little further. I could use some good people to help us get my project on wheels. I’ll keep an eye out for you and the chessboard ready. Remember, Red, hope is a good thing. Maybe the best of things, and no good thing ever dies. I will be hoping that this Diary entry finds you … and finds you well.

~ Your friend, Real Cat

Happy Birthday, The Shawshank Redemption. You were my husband’s favorite movie, you are also one of mine, and perhaps one of THE greatest movies of all time. Because knowing what I know at this point in the game, hope really DOES begin in the dark. I am living proof of that beautiful Genesis promise.

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JULY 26, 2021: “The Divine Apostrophe” …

She had come to believe it was the dark days of the past that made her impossibly strong. It was years before she realized she was wrong. She was forged by His design.

“Strong” is what she was.
“Light” is who she’d be.
The darkness merely forced her to prove it.

As she was pulled towards her destiny with a blind faith that swathed her in power and grace, her soul — which “should have been” broken – remained UNbroken. She never stopped believing in God and love and refused to be a jaded victim.

She was the girl who smiled when it rained, danced as her life unraveled, and rejected the devil’s lie that life just wasn’t worth living. Then, right on cue, the vivid palette she’d been handed by The Master morphed into the grey that infused her canvas.

She would have to rewrite her fairy tale an infinite number of times, but never did she cower at starting over. Deep in her heart, she knew she was sent to master the art of diving deep into her own soul and embracing the love and magic that had been waiting to meet her there all along. Somehow she knew that every ending was just a beginning and that even the most beautiful seasons had to change.

Each time the devil tried to steal the crown from her head, she’d adapt, survive, and emerge from her cocoon as the ungroundable Phoenix she was. She was a creation of Light that couldn’t be dimmed … God’s very favorite daughter and divinely appointed “apostrophe”:

I’m an apostrophe. I’m just a symbol to remind you that there’s more to see. I’m just a product of the system. A catastrophe … and yet a masterpiece … and yet I’m half diseased … and when I am deceased, at least I’ll go down to the grave and die happily … leave the body and my soul to be a part of thee. I’ll do what it takes.
{“Whatever It Takes” … Imagine Dragons}

“She” is me!

“She” can be YOU!

If you are stumbling in a darkness of your own, please pick up that crown the devil kicked off your head and put it right back where it belongs! Not just for you, but for the others who are standing in your halo. Even as you read this, your name is being mentioned in rooms you’ve yet to enter where plans are being drawn by The Powers just for you!

As for me?

Like the stars in the sky that punctuate humanity with their halos, I’ll continue to beam through the infinite abyss that would love nothing better than to swallow me alive. I’ll keep reminding myself that my soul is ablaze with all the mysterious and illustrious things that dying eyes desperately need to see to help them find their way back home.

We were all created from perfection! We were all divinely inspired! We are all a product of the Light that the darkness in this world wants to extinguish, and we are all God’s “favorite” children!

A moment to reflect

What is one part of your light that no difficult season has been able to extinguish?

Continue the story:
God’s Favorite Daughter
NO ONE Comes for the Queen!

  • Rumi quote poster, redesigned
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MARCH 30, 2021: “Because Hope Is A Good Thing” …

A woman and a cat sit together in the rain beneath the words “Hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things, and no good thing ever dies,” from The Shawshank Redemption.

The Shawshank Redemption was Zack’s favorite movie of all time. To him, it screamed “hope” in every circumstance. And despite the obviously tragic ending, trust me when I tell you that he tried not to literally lose his mind and fall apart the way he did. Ironically, we watched it together for probably the twentieth time the weekend before he died, and he cried the whole way through it. Looking back, I know in my heart that, as he was watching it for the very last time, he knew he wasn’t going to be able to hang on much longer, and that all the “hope” he had tried so hard to find was fast coming to a screeching halt. We’d talked incessantly about what he was feeling in his heart and mind, and towards the end, he just kept saying it felt like he was trapped inside a prison. Five nights later, he was gone.

In here is where it makes the most sense … you need it so you don’t forget … that there are places in the world that aren’t made out of stone … that there’s something inside that they can’t get to … they can’t touch … it’s yours … hope.

Having done a little investigating, I was able to speak with one of the first responders at the scene the morning of August 23rd, who was kind enough to answer some of the questions I needed answers to. He said that when they found him, the car was still running, and the opera music playing inside was so loud they could hear it through the windows. I can’t know for certain what Zack was listening to at the end. But knowing him, I have often imagined it was his favorite musical masterpiece of all, Mozart’s The Marriage of Figaro—the music from his favorite scene in the movie:

Here’s the thing …

There are so many questions I’ll never have answers to, and even more things I’ll never understand. Only God and Zack know what was going through his mind while he was alone in that car during those last dark hours, minutes, and seconds. Even if it’s true that I will see him again in another place and time, and even if I do get to meet God one day, there is still no assurance that ponderings such as these will be part of the conversations to be had—much less that I’ll even know I once pondered them at all. In “the opera scene,” Red said …

I have no idea to this day what those two Italian ladies were singing about. Truth is, I don’t want to know. I like to think they were singing about something so beautiful it can’t be expressed in words, and makes your heart ache because of it.

Likewise, I have no idea what Zack was really thinking about—or “listening to”—in the very last seconds of his life. I never will. But I’d like to think …

He was thinking about something so beautiful it just couldn’t be expressed in words. That despite how badly his heart was aching, perhaps he could still see a Light at the end of the very dark tunnel his life on Earth had become—and maybe that Light was the last bit of “hope” he was clinging to.

As par for the course, there are things He will reveal to me only if and when I’m ready to hear them, and so many other things that simply aren’t meant for me to understand at all. Guess what? THAT’S OKAY! I have the truly blind faith in my mind’s eye to guide me as I’m crossing over, and that’s all the “hope” I’ll ever need. Indeed, HOPE is a very good thing!

  • A weathered hope-themed quote image about believing that what is broken can still bloom.
  • A dark warrior kneels with a shield and sword beneath the words: “I’m either going Home WITH my shield … OR ON IT!” — The Real Cat Williamson.
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MARCH 22, 2021: “Life Up On Top Of The Bridge” …

TO WHOEVER NEEDS TO HEAR THIS:

You … are going … to be … OKAY! As long as there is still breath in your lungs and you wake up again tomorrow morning, there’s still a chance for you to find The Light! The Moon does always fall, but The Sun always rises, too. I promise, promise, promise. All of which now reminds me of some of the most beautiful words I never knew I needed to hear until I heard them from a Swedish Flyboy on an American plane coming back from France …

“Keep your face always toward the sunshine—and shadows will fall behind you.”
{Author unknown}

So, chin up, knuckles out, and keep the faith, my friend, because life really must go on.

LIFE MUST GO ON

Sitting alone in the cold of the night. You’re trying to find what you need to survive. You’re so afraid you can’t go on. Left in the silence that tears at your heart. They only remind you how broken you are. You’ve lost your way. But hope is not gone, ’cause The Sun always sets, The Moon always falls. It feels like the end – just pay no mind at all. Keep rolling … rolling … Life must go on. Do you remember and long for the past? When love was eternal and joy seemed to last. Yesterday. Forever is gone. We have our misfortunes – the darkest of days. We must endure and keep strong. Just look to the morning … the promise awaits … and know that this life must go on. And the Sun always sets. The Moon always falls. It feels like the end – just pay no mind at all. Keep rolling … rolling … Life must go on. {Alter Bridge}

Dad: I know you would have liked the mansion but mom says that it’s not her so we will go to PF Chang’s, looking forward to seeing you. Me: Okay! So when is it? What date and time? I didn't get that text. PF Changs is good. Gia and I love that place and so does Christian. Dad: Wendsday night, I told her to make reservations. Me: Oh okay! We will be there!
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SUMMER OF ’96: “My Precious Declaration” …

Hitched a ride to the peaceful side of town, then proceeded where thieves were no longer found. Can’t crash now … I’ve been waiting for this! Won’t crash now … I’ve found some encouragement. Once, I jumped through hoops of fire high and far as you required. I was blind but now I see! Salvation has discovered me. New meanings to the words I feed upon wake within my veins elements of freedom. Can’t break now … I’ve been living for this! Won’t break now … I’m cleansed with hopefulness! This precious declaration reads: “Yours is yours, and mine you leave alone now!” This precious declaration reads: “I believe all hope is dead no longer.”

(Words Adapted)
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